How you start your day is most likely how your day will end. Words of wisdom, perhaps or perhaps not. For such words indicate that there is little to be salvaged once you become angry, frightened, or any emotion other than joy.
So it is you are in a belief pattern that has little to do with your reality. For you have been taught that you MUST feel, express, and therefore, experience ‘niceness.’
Is it not true that once you declare that you are or will be a nice person, you feel guilty when a snarky remark escapes? Not because you are a terrible person, but because you negated your niceness creed. Are such snarky statements, not your truth? And are your inner urgings now not about honesty?
At first, your honesty might go beyond what you expect. You might find yourself blurting something you are ashamed of or surprised about. Such is not terrible, but instead a clearing process to end your 3D need to sift your words through social shoulds and have tos.
Do you not expect some calibrations when you change the ink in your printer? Perhaps you find the color is too light or dark on your first attempt to print after the new cartridge is inserted. Do you not then adjust until the color or ink meets your needs? So it is for your new inner honesty.
You are not used to being honest while of the earth – even with yourself. For you have honed your words and actions to your social role.
Your anger, depression, fears, and emotional suppressions are the result of trying to fit in – verbally and physically. You have 3D roles as spouse, parent, child, community member, supervisor, leader, etc. And in the past, you performed as expected even though you did not always agree or find doing so easy.
So you often needed to buoy your spirits with self-talk like, “He’s my friend, so I will travel with him to places I don’t want to go.” Or, “She’s my child, so I should care for her no matter how she treats me.”
And if you do not perform as expected in any social category, 3D society claims the right to negate your worth. “She’s not a good friend. He’s not a good father.” Strongly encouraging you to fall into the social pattern of rightness.
You are likely starting to experience mini temper tantrums within those social interactions from “I don’t want to talk to her now, so I’m not going to call even though she told me to.” Or “I’m not going to use my one free day to take care of your needs.” And though your words might not express that temper tantrum, your tone might. For you are tired beyond tired of transitioning, as well as maintaining social mores.
You want to do what you want to do.
You are at the 5D adult evolutionary phase of returning to your ‘terrible twos,’ of stamping your foot and saying, “NO!” And not in a gentle tone.
You are exhausted trying to please the Universes, your society, your loved ones, and yourself.
You can no longer be all things to all people or beings. You are you. And you likely do not have the energy to carry anyone, no matter how much you love them or owe them. You are exhausted.
You shifted earth – for which you prepared for eons. So you could complete that task while remaining, for the most part, within the 3D world.
Your current self-love piece is more trying for you have never before attempted to fully claim yourself and so many new segments in dense 3D energies. So it is you feel, at times, as if you are in quicksand. Your loved ones are demanding this, your employer wants something different, and your society expects more. Pulling and pushing you this way and that until you finally declare, “I’m not going to take it anymore.”
Of course, the pushing and prodding is not an accident. You, en masse, created such so you would shift beyond your 3D ropes, beyond the limitations established by your past and present 3D lives. Forcing you (often kicking and screaming) to declare yourself a sovereign being following inner directives instead of societal shoulds and have tos.
Such willfulness is expected of two-year-olds, but most certainly not of the 3D socialized adult, you believe yourself to be.
But before you can fully claim yourself, you need to discover those actions and pieces that are 3D requirements. Such is what is now happening.
So it is you will find yourself saying, “NO” more often and more loudly in the most unexpected places and times. Of course, you might offend those of 3D. Not because what you are saying or doing is wrong, but because you are eradicating social mores without replacing them with others that are socially acceptable.
You are a new person in a new world. And you are claiming that new person, slowly at first, for your seeming tirades or words will frighten you as well as others.
“What if I cross the line, and no one likes me?” is a constant threat to your newness. Not because that is something you need to be concerned about, but that you are so socialized to shoulds and have tos you cannot always remember who you are.
Suffice it for you to know that you are a new being. So it is you may blurt something that surprises you as well as others, or you might refuse to do something that others expect of you. Neither of those actions is terrible for you are a new being adjusting within a 3D world.
As a new you terrible two, you only need to be concerned about how you feel at the moment. Did your two-year-old son decide to protest changing his clothes based on your needs or his?
So it is you might say something that hurts others’ feelings, not because your statement is wrong, but because you are not following the 3D should of the moment. Allow that to be as you evolve.
And allow yourself to rest for you have forced yourself to comply with both 3D and 5D demands beyond what your physical being is capable of.
Allow yourself to be – temper tantrums, shifts in actions and interests, and maybe a return to some of your 3D activities. No one knows, including you, what this terrible-two phase will shift. Just know that such is an accepted and expected need allowing you to negate deeply ingrained 3D shoulds and have tos.
It is time to be as nice to yourself as others expect you to be to them. So be it. Amen.
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