It is time to address your fears that your future will be even bleaker than has been true these past few months. That all you hoped for will not come to fruition. For you have been acting on this plan of joyful earth for eons. Only to have your previous earth lives end before you completed the task. Or being punished for trying.
Such are your past memories of what happened to you and other forerunners lifetime after lifetime – until now. For indeed, this life is the culmination of your eons of effort.
You do not quite understand why your current waves of terror are surfacing. You believe such is so because of political, racial, environmental, religious, sexual injustices, or any other fear now displayed throughout the earth. And so it is in terms of your immediate knowledge base. But deep within the recesses of your being are the terrors you experienced lifetime after lifetime of not being able to complete the task you were assigned. Or suffering emotionally or physically for trying to do so.
Those are the fears now surfacing – the fears that stop you from functioning or moving into joy. For deep within, you do not trust that all is progressing far faster than you now imagine. That you will finally live in joy and love while of the earth. Many of you are starting to believe that such might happen, but not in this lifetime. That a joyful life continues to be out there somewhere with promise after promise from the Universes.
Such is so about Universal promises. But what you cannot yet remember is that those promises were, until now, that you would focus on an unattainable earth goal. You have done so for eons despite minimal rewards, fear, and isolation – all for this lifetime of joy.
So it is you have difficulties letting go of those fears – all the while holding your inner breath waiting for the punishment that always occurred when you focussed on this moment, this drive to joy.
You tremble not because of the future, but because of past memories in your inner-being. Finally, you are allowing those deeply hidden fears to surface, knowing within that this life will be that promised life of joy. You hid those fears deeply so you would dare volunteer to be of the earth lifetime after lifetime. Now that you sense the ending will be as you always hoped, you are allowing yourself to access and clear those fears.
The difficulty is you are discovering those hidden fears are attached to the world or local events creating reactions out of proportion to those events. Perhaps you have difficulty breathing, getting out of bed, shake uncontrollably, or your physical body reacts with ailments. Yet, the next hour or day, those fears seem almost trivial until another unfocused wave of fear strikes.
These deeply hidden fears could not be addressed until now, for doing so would have likely stopped you from returning to 3D earth. So it is you volunteered lifetime after lifetime to complete the preparatory tasks necessary for this lifetime.
You can finally see the light at the end of your long, arduous tunnel of skill development and preparation. Perhaps it would be beneficial to imagine yourself as a star athletic perfecting their craft. Star athletes do not initiate their process as a star athlete. They experience failure after failure and physical exhaustion doing so. So it was for you developing the skills you implemented in this lifetime as you helped earth transition beyond 3D.
Maybe you can best address what you have felt the past few days periodically or might experience shortly, as post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).
Allow yourself to know it will be short-lived for just as is true for star athletes, their pain and fear dissipate or disappear once they achieve their goal. So it will be for you.
In this life, you will experience joy, self-love, peace, and loving interactions globally. This is your reward. This life is your Olympic gold, silver, and bronze medals. This life is finally allowing you to clear your deeply hidden PTSD.
This is the life you have been waiting for. So be it. Amen.
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